My Scrapbooking ventures

I have done a lot of different things since I posted last, I just haven’t had the time to post much. I have had work, and I have played a lot of Final Fantasy XIV (still doing : D) but now that summer is coming, and vacation is just around the corner, I thought I should just try to post a few more things here.

First I will try to show some pictures of my adventures in Scrapbooking! I know I posted some about it earlier, but I’ll try to tell and show a little more of it now.

Some of the basic sets I bought later, because even if the book I bought with the first set was good, it was really small, one of these had a medium book, that seemed better for me to use at journaling.

Some of the basic sets I bought later, because even if the book I bought with the first set was good, it was really small, one of these had a medium book, that seemed better for me to use at journaling.

I always just thought scrapbooking looked really boring, and I mostly saw it as making pretty family albums or just more hardcore cards. But I found

I bought a set at Panduro first, with how to books, and all you needed to start, I also got a lot of things beside that, so I think I got broke the first time I started XD

I bought a set at Panduro first, with how to books, and all you needed to start, I also got a lot of things beside that, so I think I got broke the first time I started XD

out I could actually do more with it than that, when my little brother’s girlfriend started wanting to make a scrapbook journal. I raided Panduro when I got back home that summer, and got all the journaling stuff I thought looked cool. After that I realized I sadly am not one for journaling. But, on the other side, I like making stories. And what better to give a fairy tale feel with, than fantasy filled scrapbook art?

I already posted some pictures from my original story book idea that I were working on as a gift for my niece. I weren’t able to finish it for christmas because of lots of work, but I will still work on it as time goes, and hopefully it will be finished while she can still enjoy it. Someone also told me it could be a good idea for a children’s book, so who knows?

Other than that I started working on an original short fairy tale story based on my own stories. I even bought a really pretty album with a fairy tale theme, together with the background papers that came along with it. It has everything from dragons, fairy tale quotes, to really fantasy inspired designs, and I know I will get to use most of them in time. I also bought a lot of different design papers at different shops in town, and I feel quite pleased with a lot of the things I have gotten. Stamps with ABCs on them, and different stamp colors. A lot of smaller design papers to use in different ways, and also lots of pretty things to put on to make the designs even more unique.

To be able to do something smaller as well, that I can just really focus on, and then get it done without feeling like I have hundred more things to do with it, as an eventual book would do, I also started a small project. A sort of series with one picture done at a time. It will be a series of unique ideas, all linked together with it being about the characters from my books. So basically each of them gets one verse, and one page to their unique personality and story. So far I have only made one, but I really liked how it ended up.

 

 

 

 

Why I write

Ever since I learned to write I can remember writing. As a kid I would cut up my drawing papers and make my own little note book where I wrote the long awaited sequal to Roald Dahl’s Witches, or I would get drawing books  from school and make lines, for then to continue the stories of Jill Valentine after the T-virus was defeated the first time.

I remember starting my own stories and letting my close friends read them ever since I entered high school. To hear them want to read more made me happy, it was like I was sharing a deep secret that only they could ever understand. I wrote adventures that I read to my little brother when I put him to bed and we felt like we were both on adventures, my brother even cried at times, as his favorite characters faced dangers it seemed they would not recover from. Those are still our stories, and we have never let anyone else read or listen to them, and I know we never will.

But as the times went by, I started to develop my writing a little, and I started writing more in english, something that had left me, if I can say so myself, quite good with understanding english. I started to dare write more dramatic, and I kept writing even harder. I felt like if I just continued, something great would come, something amazing.

Then, around 10 years ago, I started writing a really dark story, and I kept writing it when I could, adding more and more layers until I almost fell in love with my own characters. They were my babies, I had created them and I cared for them, let them grow up, and let them progress as I felt they should. But there was something not right yet, there was like something was missing, something amazing.

That amazing thing started around that same time, all those years ago, I just didn’t know it yet. I hadn’t formed it into the right thing yet. It hadn’t become amazing yet.

With my brother and my cousin I went out to try and create adventures when we found ourselves bored one summer, and we made our own characters to play. I found the name from a manga I read at the time, gave one name to my brother’s character, and the other to my own. A naive creation, a seemingly failure driven wizard, haunted with only knowledge and no luck.

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From an innocent and carefree start, a new universe started to expand. My old stories got new form, as I added the blue haired menace of a wizard into all the stories. As a side character or as a unseemly hero. He grew with me, I went to University with him, and he changed as I changed, for good and for bad.

I think I could let someone read my stories through the ages, and they would see how my mentality changes through my stories, through my characters and through how happiness tends to change to darkness. In the start I wrote a happy start for Noin, where he lived a good life and ended up with the Lord of Destiny, who he became apprentice for and learned magic. But as I redid the story around 10 years later, it turned dark and even his time as an apprentice had its dark sides. No longer alone with his Master, but also with a group called the Reapers, all different people with different values in life, and each their dark side.

But through all that darkness, each of them showed that they could face the light. I think I grew and learned that people are not always kind and gentle, I was no longer naive about life, but I wished so hard for kindness that I would stick to all the darkness until at least a shred of light could be salvaged. Until a smile was saved, I would not let it go.

Through hundreds of different stories, with hundreds of different characters and thousands of words, I searched for light, and it was always found. People would find each other, and people would laugh and be happy, and I would find myself smiling and being happy with them. When they cried I would now and again cry with them! But still, even if everyone else were happy, I would always somehow break Noin in the end. If he was happy he would tear everything apart, if he was happy he would break the world down and be left with nothing. In the end, he ended up as nothing but a watcher, that could only watch his loved ones be happy and be sure to keep them happy. He gave everything for his loved ones, and was left with nothing himself. We will never get anything back.

As a person that has always tried my best to do everything right, I help people, and often don’t ask for anything back. I listen to people and try to support them if I can, and through the years I have noticed that most of the time, I get nothing back, and a lot of times I seem to stand back alone, without anything to show for my time, or any sign of gratitude at all. It is like people grab a part of my being each time, and in the end only my essence stands back, and it gets more and more tiering each time. Like I am slowly fading away, and want to scream for someone to notice. I am here. This is me. Listen to me back, please.

But I thankfully have someone who listens, and lends me their strenght, and my way of thanking them is by borrowing their virtues. My cousin’s amazing personality for the villains that just wants to be evil because they can. My first roomate’s playful yet serious demeanour that fit perfect with how Noin’s Master eventually ended up after I lived with her for three years. And my second roomate’s gentle and kind personality she put into her own characters that she let me use for my Reapers.

Through the years I have understood, that Noin is me, and I am Noin. The stories and the character change with my life, and I cannot let him be really happy, because I myself still has yet to reach that. I can write the part of it well, but it will just be an illusion until someone comes along and spreads a neverending happiness in my soul. Until then I will live strong on the kindness of others and the universe of my own creation.

I write because I am nothing without it. I am a silent person normally, and my stories is my voice. It is how I try to let others see my vision and views. My entire life I have been plain, and easy to overlook. I am average at everything, and never really outstanding. I draw, but don’t really feel like I am amazing at it. I sew, but don’t feel like it is any good. I write, but the sad fact is that I have never been outstanding in it. Never once have a teacher taken out my hand ins and read it to the class, never have I even gotten a good grade on a story.

I write to let my voice out, but until I feel strong enough to scream out, no one will ever know these amazing stories as I do, no one will ever know who I am, no one will listen and when my time is over, all I want is for someone else to know who Noin is, and who his precious people are, because, then I at least know I will never be forgotten.

Because, what I have learned from my writing, is that even if a lot of people you meet on the way can suddenly stop talking to you, and even if people go away and leave you alone. Never regret the moments! Live with the memories, and never forget the fun times! All the pain is worth it then, as long as it leaves good memories, if it just leaves sad memories, it was not worth it.

Be happy, be creative! Let no one bring you down, and you can create an universe!

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What can happen during a 3 hour walk?

What can happen? Firstly, you will get painful horrible blisters. I have been limping around since I got home and took the shoes off. Class act, I know XD

But besides that, I have been able to see a lot of nice scenery, found a nice place to rest and draw, and found a place to bring my family for bathing and to grill when they come to visit during easter and May if it is nice weather!

New nice bathing/hangout place:

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Random places seen while walking:

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And I think I found a haunted house XD:

I have no idea what this building is, but it looks giant and there is no people there as far as I could see. I really want to look over all the pictures and see if I can see a ghost or something XD.

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And my drawing done in the wonderful sunlight:

The character is from a new story I started after I finsihed one I have been working on for ages. And I were quite proud of how he turned out =)

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Just having fun ^-^

I have done a lot of different stuff for one vacation. I have given out a lot of job applications, and also took a course for computers free through NAV, of course I am good enough in computers from before, but now I have the driver licence in computer XD.

If I haven’t gotten a job before the end of this month I will start on a new course, and that will last until December if I get in ^-^.

But other than that I have just sown a lot! And written a lot! There has been two NaNoWri camps. I am on the second now, and were a winner at the first one, and hope to sail this in as well! I have a lot of ideas, and there will be everything from the world being taken over by demons and similar creatures and America taken over by zombies XD.

Back to the sowing! I have discovered the quilt and fabric designs of Jinny Beyer, and after I bought a bag pattern from a small shop named Quiltekroken, I orderd a lot of fabric from Jinny Beyer on ebay! I made a bag from start to finish, and other than the fact that I have to fix the sides now, I am proud!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Other than that I am still working on the blanket for my nephew, and I have also started on this beautiful free pattern from Jinny Beyer’s own site.

I had to order the red border print for it, but I hope it will be worth it when I am done! Now I just have to stop watching project runway XD

(This is how far I have come with the blanket right now, and if you notice it, I have made a mistake somwhere XD)

(This is the border print, it is one and a half yards long, but in width there are about two-three big borders, and four-five small, so you have a lot for the lenght actually.)

(This is the middle of the table runner, it is made up by pasting together four parts of the big border line print, and I really love the design of it! then I just paste on the colors on each side with a range of colors! I will post a picture when I get done with it, if I can hold my hand still enough XD)

 

 

Your hopes and dreams

“I collect hopes and dreams!”

That is what I say each time I meet new people. Of course I don’t walk around on the street and do it. (Even though it would be really fun to see their buffled faces.)

I live in the middle of a wonderful and lively city! What city you might ask, and my answer would be: Every wonderful city!

At a special corner of your city I have my house, and if you ever find it you are welcome in. For tea or coffee, everything is free! The only thing I ask for back, is that you tell me your hopes and dreams.

I won’t say anything as stupid as I will make your dreams come true or fulfill your hopes and goals for you. No one can give you the life you want beside yourself.

I love humankind, but I hate humans that don’t work for their own future… they are eyesores!

So tell me your hopes for your future if you ever find a small tea shop in a corner you have never seen before. I won’t make your dreams or hopes come true, but I can give advices for you, and since I love all of you, I want to see your happy futures take form too!

I want a lot of new friends!

People to laugh and have fun with!

Let me listen to your hopes, and in the end some of you might help fulfill mine.

~ The dreams and hopes company ~

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I am thinking of a new story to write, something that is not as dark and gloomy as what I have been writing lately. But I love that this lead character so far has become a hypocrite XD

I want to try and write a POV story again, I haven’t done that since I wrote Bakura and Ryou fanfics in my teenage years XD When I try to write POV I just usually stop after the first page because it is a little ackward for me, but I really want to try one! A limited view of the story, and the chance for the reader to see the stories completely trough one characters eyes and thoughts.

Once upon a time – chapter 1

This is the story that I mentiones earlier that I write on my iPad, I will post more if people like it ^.^ It is a little slow start, but it will start up a little in the next chapter XD The prologue is first, then follow the cut for the 1st chapter.

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Prologue

 

What was the first fairytale you ever read or heard? All parents tell them to their children when they grow up.

It is mostly brutal stories.  Some of them have moral, while some just tell of how cruel life can be. What is really amusing is that some of the fairytales can get twice as brutal as the things kids see on TV and in games these days, but it seems that parents finds it ok as long as it is considered culture.

It was in late winter that it all started to change, and the countdown to the day the world’s view of fairytales would change forever started.

Enter the small town of Noelle, a small town a long way from everything else. Most of the stuff that happened first happened here. Not to say that weird stuff didn’t happened other places at this time, but if all of it should be covered in this story and to the same detail, we would never get this over with.

Noelle has an elementary school, but above that the children have to leave the town to get to their schools, but at least they had some good contact with the outside world.

This story starts off in the late of winter, just some time after Christmas. The weather had been really bad for a long time already, and the people of the town were trying to cope with it as good as they could.

First the temperature dropped to a low that had never been witnessed in that town since it was founded in the early 1880s. Then the snow came, and even school was cancelled for the time being. People had to stay inside, and there was an increase in deaths of the elderly that was unable to get protected enough from the cold outside.

Then it all happened. Over one night the entire town’s fate was changed as it for one night completely faded away.

For one night the town was gone from our world. A family that had been out of town for the night and just came back could swear that it had been gone when they came back. In panic they alerted the next town, but when the police finally listened to them and came to inspect it, the town was there again.

The people in the town had been sleeping and it seemed that all of them had fallen asleep at the same time, and woken up at the same time.

But some things were not the same.

Some people were still missing, while some of the ones still there could vaguely remember things that happened when they were asleep.

And the only thing to show that the town had been gone was that the houses looked thorn and old when they returned. And even though the town was in the deep snow and in the biting cold, roses had started growing over the entire town, like it had been in a warmer place for a long time.

The mysteries of this day are hidden from all of them, and many people left the town after this for their own safety. But the ones that remained to figure out the mysteries of this day, will not be disappointed.

But the truth might change their lives even further than living in Noelle already has.

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What I am doing now?

Well, I am still just doing all I can to have fun when I should really just be reading japanese grammar each passing second -.-

I don’t know if I mentioned it earlier, but I fell and hit my knee… T.T It was owie… I would share a picture with you, but I am not evil -.- I had to spend almost a entire week home because my knee burned, and my other foot was not good to walk on.

But i am better now, and doing stupid things again ^.^

I am working harder on my japanese now, since I have applied for a japanese University for the next two semesters. But I didn’t get my first choice so I am a little nervous, since Hokkaido that I came into the line for, has the classes in japanese… But I really hope I can go! Together with my roommate!

But it all is a little scarier now, and the day I got the call that I was in line for Hokkaido was the same day that the earthquake and tsunami hit… It has all seemed a little dark after that, and I hope it will go well for Japan, and the ones in my class that was supposed to leave this month and the next but are not allowed.

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I also bought a keyboard for my iPad! It is really useful! But now I have the problem that when I start to write on my computer I always push my finger at the screen afterward and hope it will work XD I have the manuscript on this, and I have started a whole new story to write on the iPad! It is a story set in a small town in a mordern world, but the backdrop of it is old fairy tales with some extreme dark twists! (I mean it… my hanzel and Grethel didn’t seem that bad until I wrote down for my friend what just happened O.o…)

The story starts off as the town of Noelle suddenly one day dissapears. For one entire day the whole town and the people that lived there were gone. The next day the town is back, and also most of the people living in it. But some are gone, and the lives of the ones that returned will never again be the same. No one remembers what happened, and the town itself suddenly looked like it had been gone for a lot more time than one day. And all around the town, blood red roses grows trough the cold snow.

So far I have three chapters, and the first one starts off around 4-6 years later, as most of the people have gone back to their own lives. First chapter is just a little start off, and the main characters are introduced.

Second chapter is Hanzel and Grethel, and the third is little red riding hood. I have also plans of having Sleeping beauty, and I want a Bluebeard version where Bluebeard wins in the end XD (Or sort of XD) I will also use other fairytales as I go, and if there is any good ideas out there I want to know! Please tell me your favorite fairy tale! Just be warned that I am a sick sick person and it might be turned darker than your wildest imagination XD

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Other than that… WAI!!!!!!!!! The trailer for the DVD release of Marchen has come!! WA!!! I want it so much and I want it now!!!

Oh God I will die laughing off the scene where Jimang is dressed up as a woman XD There is just something about that image that is priceless ^-^

But when the movie is done in the 3d theaters in Japan and finally is released, I will buy it! And I will post about it! ^-^

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And the last I want to write about now… OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

I just read chapter 55 of Kuroshitsuji, that just came out, and if it wasn’t awsome enough with Ronald, Lizzie’s family, Snake and a Titanic like ship with zombie and Undertaker on, guess what just jumped on from a iceberg!

*Tries to find words to express the awsome that just made Anki’s head implode on itself*

Wah!! Grell is back!! And the real one this time!! Not the comic relief Grell clone that the anime made us look forward to!! I have a reason to live again!! (Other than waiting for the Grell and Will OVA… if it hasn’t come out yet…?) What I am looking forward to now is to see Grell being awsome! I am already happily suprised to see that Ronald as not as stupid as he seemed in the anime, this Ronald is awsome! And he kicks zombie butts like there is no tomorrow! And he has extra weapons! And he can mock Sebastian too!

I’m so happy now T.T

And I don’t own any of the scans here, they are scanlated over at the Bleach Asylum I think, go there and download if you want to read it all ^.^

And I am looking forward to see how all will go, how Grell and Ronald interact, and also how Sebastian and Ciel will take it if they do meet Grell again XD But since Lizzie is there it might go a little like the anime and they agree to work together since Ciel would work with anyone if he could protect Lizzie ^.^

Well… school tomorrow, and long post is long XP