Horror manga review: xxxHolic

Made by the mangaka circle of fangirl pain, Clamp, xxxHolic is a series that is built around the idea of people’s wishes and what wishes can do for a person. Not entierly a horror series, but there is a lot of really nice horror moments in both the manga and the anime.

We follow the story of Watanuki Kimihiro (written as 1st of april), a youth that has lost all of his family, and have to deal with being able to seeing spirits, with also having habit of attracting them. One day he comes across a shop that grants wishes, and the owner, Yuko, promises to give him his wish to not be bothered by ghosts anymore, as long as he works it off as her part time worker.

Together they experience many adventures, as we get to see anything from japanese yokai, to normal ghosts and peoples bad habits manifesting into deadly curses. With the help of Yuko he gains many friends, and creates never ending bonds, all the while she leads him down to his destiny, as there is a mystery in his past that only she, and someone that is closest to him in all worlds knows.

While this series works mostly fine on its own, it is also a crossover with Clamp’s manga Tsubasa RESERVoir Chronicle, that is linked to the start of xxxholic, and also the end. There are lots of small crossovers with other clamp series as well, but can well be enjoyed on its own.

So if you want a fun, scary and heartbreaking read for halloween, xxxHolic is a nice place to start for those that can’t take too scary stories. But still, you will be getting stuff like this:

or fun nods to japanese folklore like this:

All in all, if you check out the anime, or the manga, you will have a lot of fun ^-^

Character study: Ulquiorra Schiffer


Ulquiorra Schiffer is one of the longest running personal enemies for Kurosaki Ichigo in the manga Bleach. He is the 4th Espada in Aizen Sousuke’s army, and his aspect of death is Nihilism. He has been one of my favorite Bleach characters for a while now, and I don’t really know why… I think it is the same thing as with Kadaj from Final Fantasy, I just think they need a hug! (Ulquiorra would certainly kill me before I had the chance…)

If you watch the anime or manga, you probably know how Ulquiorra’s sad end came about, and it was certainly sad. Not only did he fade after a victory that Ichigo saw as un-fair, but he also in the end thought he had found what he had looked for his entire existence: the heart.

I decided myself that Ulquiorra was not dead, I decided that since he never got a flashback scene, he just withered away to dust for so to materialize again later (Mayuri became water and escaped!! I so call that Ulquiorra can blow away and materialize!!). But alas, I have now found out that he does have a flashback scene, just that it is a extra chapter in the character guide UNmasked… MY ULQUIORRA IS DEAD!!!! NO!!!! (I now live on for more awsome Ichigo and a hope for a Grimmjow return T.T)

But I am happy that we got a background on him! Since it does explain a little of how he has become like he is.

In the chapter he says that he was born in a deep hole where there was no light, and he were together with hollows like himself. I don’t really know how this works since I guess he were a adjuncas at this point? And that both he and his clan had been born from the same Gillian? I am not sure XD But he is adorable XD

But he is different from his fellow hollows, as they are deep black, and has mouths to feed with, while he has nothing than his eyes  and is completely white beside his eyes, hair and wings. He then kills all of them with no remorse, probably because they decided to turn against him. as hollows are mostly canibalistic.

He keeps wandering alone. He can only see. He can not feel, he can’t hear anything or eat anything. His only sense is that of his sight, and all he learned in his early life was to trust his sight. If he didn’t see something, it didn’t exist at all for him, and this is a fact that he believed in until the end. And another sad fact was that because he had no other sense to help him understand things with, the things he saw made no sense to him.

He had no companions, and because he could not count on any other sense than his eyes, he could not rest at all, since he knew he would be eaten by other hollows.

Then he comes to the place that is the source for the crystal like trees in Hueco Mundo. He is captivated by the energy, but also the emptiness of the trees. They are just there, and they don’t need to interact with others or think about anything. He sees it as the closest thing to a void he had ever seen, and the sad fact is that he explains it as one of the only things he can be able to comprehend himself: With no colour, no sound, no scent, it only exists there.

In the end he lets himself fall into the source, and his mask is broken off as he falls into it. Then he is captured inside it, and as he loses all sight as well, he for the first time in his life feels happiness. He felt that his happiness was in this instant that he had nothing, and he could lose nothing, thus for him, total nothingness was happiness.

Firstly, it seems that Ulquiorra is a exeption to most of the rules of hollows. He is strong, yet he should not have been able to have eaten anything in the start, yet he killed off his entire clan, something that means he must have been really strong to begin with. He is also so far the only Vasto Lord class known that has been able to take off his mask himself, and not with Aizen’s help, another proof of his strenght. But since he is never shown to have eaten another hollow, it might be that he gained a lot of strenght from lying at the source for the crystal trees.

It is still not known how he met Aizen, but we can sort of understand why he had such a high position and did most of the work for Aizen, since a person with no desire at all have to be a wonderful person to trust. He does not desire more powers as the others did, he follows reason, and he had no reason to dissobey Aizen at all.

But with this past revealed, there is another important thing to point out: Ulquiorra’s despair. His first release is the form close to the one he had when he was a Vasto Lord, but the last form, that he tells Ichigo is the true form of Despair, looks a lot like his kin. Does Ulquiorra see despair as becoming like his kin then? And if he does, is it because he saw them as normal hollows and wanted desperately to be like them? Or that he feared to become like them and that was his despair? Their blackness must have seemed like a complete void to him, yet to become like them frightens him? Might this also be a reason he left the void he felt happiness in in the end? Even if he longed for that emptiness, maybe it frightened him as well in the end? And emptiness is his one true despair, no matter how much he longed for it.

In the end it seems that falling into the void and seeing nothing, and also the fascination he has with Ichigo and Orihime all comes back to the fact that he wants to pull himself from the one sense he has always had. He wants to find something his eyes can not see, and know that it is still there. He can not see the thing called feelings, but he links them to the heart that he neither can see, and he keeps longing for it without even knowing enough about life to know that the longing for an answer is a feeling. I think he understands this in the end, as he reaches for Orihime. He did not understand what a heart is, but he understand that there was a feeling in him, that made him reach for her. He understood that he felt longing, and as he pulls his hand back and laments having to die as he finally felt some interest for someone, he for the first time seems like he is sad, as he knows he is about to die, and will never be able to figure out these two people that is so different from him. Orihime who feels so much love for everyone, and Ichigo who lives on to protect, while he himself wishes for nothing to protect or worry about at all.

Hearts, you say? You Humans are always so quick to speak of such things. As though you carry your hearts in the very palms of your hands. But this eye of mine perceives all. There is nothing that it overlooks. If this eye cannot see a thing, then it does not exist. That is the assumption under which I have always fought. What is this “heart”? If I tear open that chest of yours, will I see it there? If I smash open that skull of yours, will I see it there?”

Ulquiorra to Orihime before the fight with Ichigo

Ulquiorra’s real despair in the end, might have been that he never fitted in. His true form was that of his kin that he killed without ever being able to understand, and in his life, he might just have wanted to understand the sensations that his eyes were never able to tell him what was. He says that Nihility is having nothing, and having nothing to lose, he sees this as true happiness, yet he still follows Aizen? Why follow a man and take orders from him if that goes against all his views of true happiness? He protected their home when Aizen was away, and he followed his orders. Might this be a sign that Ulquiorra really did try to find some meaning? And he followed Aizen because he helped him on the way to be able to look for that meaning? In the end, he faded before he knew any real meaning in life…

I see. This. Yes. This thing in my hand is the heart?

Ulquiorra’s last words

Back on Bleach XD

Well, I ended up getting back on Bleach the past few weeks XD I have no idea how that happened right now XD I think it had something to do with my room mate, and that I started to scan some doujinshies again and decided that I wanted to catch up on the manga again as Ichigo was about to be awsome again. (for the record, he didn’t get awsome again, he started whailing like a little girl and his Rukia came and cheered him up again!)

Then I finally finished my small bleach doujinshi on my devianart, and I felt really proud over being able to finish it! Then I also started to write more on the fanfiction it is based off, and my favorites on fanfiction.net grew a lot, together with my watches on my doujinshi blog XD. You really hook people in with porn don’t you?

Then I bought three doujinshies! All of them are crack doujinshies from the circle Uzi-ie code, and are mostly about the Arrancars=) (Ulquiorra main … don’t look at me like that!!! T.T). I am working on translating and editing the scans together with my awsome new scanlation group of Hanne and Lena=) We are…: Hyakkunen keki!!!

I just love this doujinshi XD this is the first page that is about the Arrancars new year XD Aizen is a real dick to all of them XD. The second part is the shinigamis christmas XD We are still working hard on this, but we hope to get out at least one doujinshi XD

And… other than that… I… I bought a Ulquiorra plush …. -.-‘….


What sort of Hero?

So, I have been watching a lot of the Tiger and Bunny anime now, and just have two episodes left! But I watch it and enjoy it a lot! I also want to try and write a short superhero story, so I wondered if someone might have ideas for me for characters=)

1. What sort of power would you have?

2. Your Superhero name?

3. Your background?

4. Your personality and morales?

When I watched this anime I found out something really amusing about myself. I love the heroes! The cheesyness and also the gentleness of all of them. They are people with hope, and I love hope a lot! ^-^ I also found out that I have one thing in common with Wild Tiger, to be so cheerful and carefree that the people around just might get enough of you in the long run XD

But, what I found out is, that dispite of all that, if I had superpowers, I would become a villain. Interesting right? Who would have thought XD?

Umineko no Naku Koro ni

On the remote Island Rokkenjima, owned by the old and dying man, Kinzo Ushiromiya,  the annual family conferance is about to take place. One of the young cousins in the family Battler, is back for the first time in six years, and he slowly understands that a lot has changed there.

Battler’s father and his siblings quarells over the right to take over after their father, Kinzo dies, and there is also a new portrait in the main house, of a beautiful foreign woman named Beatrice, and under her picture, there is a riddle set up by Kinzo, and it is said that the one who solves it will become the new head of the family, and inherit the gold that Kinzo claims to have once gotten from the golden witch Beatrice.

“My beloved hometown, the sweetfish river running through it.
You who seek the Golden Land, follow its path downstream and seek the key.

If you follow the river downstream, you will find a village.
In the village, look for the shore the two will tell you of.
There sleeps the key to the Golden Land.

He who lays hand upon the key shall travel under the rules below.

At the first twilight, you shall lift up as sacrifice the six chosen by the key.
At the second twilight, the surviving shall tear apart the two who are close.
At the third twilight, the surviving shall praise my honorable name on high.
At the fourth twilight, gouge the head and kill.
At the fifth twilight, gouge the chest and kill.
At the sixth twilight, gouge the stomach and kill.
At the seventh twilight, gouge the knee and kill.
At the eighth twilight, gouge the leg and kill.
At the ninth twilight, the Witch shall be revived and none shall be left alive.
At the tenth twilight, the journey shall end and you should reach the village of gold.

The Witch will praise the wise, and should bestow four treasures.
One shall be, all the gold from the Golden Land.
One shall be, the resurrection of the souls of all the dead.
One shall be, even the resurrection of the lost love.
One shall be, to put the Witch to sleep for all time.

Sleep peacefully, my most beloved witch, Beatrice.

But as a terrible storm closes in, Kinzo yells out his challenge for the island’s ghost witch Beatrice whom he claims was once his true love, and the battle between illusions and reality begins.

The people on the island is killed one after another according to the riddle, and if they can’t figure out who the true culprit can be by the last twillight, the golde witch Beatrice will revive, and take the survivors to the Golden land.


What I love about Umineko is that it mixes two of my favorite genres, one is crime and the other is fantasy, but the big goal of this game is to be skeptic to the fantasy part, even as magic and witches seems so real, there is always ways of denying it and still claim that the killer or killers are human.

If you have any knowledge of Higurashi you know how this will go. As the two days in the secluded storm ends, none are left alive, and no one never finds out just what happened in the two days on Rokkenjima. But after entering the Golden Land, Battler still does not want to believe the witch Beatrice exists, and she challenges him to a game to either prove or dissprove magic, and if Battler can deny witches completely, Beatrice will die.

The chess board is set up for new games, and Beatrice sets up the murders and stories of alternative ways the two days played out, and Battler has to figure out who the killer is, before he has to admit that only a witch could have done it.

I have just come to the sixt game, and I just have to say that the ending of the fifth one was AWSOME!!!! Beside the visual novel games for this, there is also motion graphics that was sold at comiket, and I have watched all of them for a while now, and I saw the one with the story for the fifth game and it looked awsome! But it is twice as awsome when you read and listen to the visual novel! The music is awsome, the pictures are nice to look at, and the mood is set right from the start! It is true that the art for the characters aren’t that good, but you will get used to it right away and not really care about it. You can of course check out the anime or manga, I haven’t read much of the manga, but the anime was really bad X(. It cut out a lot, and if you just look at the anime I think you might lose a lot of the story and character development. (GOAT-KUN!!!)

I have a lot of Umineko videos in my youtube, and I’ll post some of them here! For me Umineko is a summer thing, since I started with it two summers ago, and I can also remember that I started to bond with one of the persons that later became a really good friend of mine because we both started to talk about Umineko and Higurashi=) Good and treasured memories thanks to blood and mutilations=) And it was thanks to the anime ending that I discovered Sound Horizon, since Jimang sings the ending song ^-^

This is the introes of the visual novels, and under here is the motion graphics, be warned that the motion graphics does contain spoilers! And just for the record, since the fifth motion graphic is mostly just a recap, the things that happens in the sixth motion graphic is acctually the story for the fifth visual novel! (I didn’t know this and was a little confused) and it does mean that none of these probably gives away what happens in the last episode.

Generator Gawl

I was still in high school when I got hooked on this one, but the weirdest thing is that I don’t think I even watched the anime for at least two years later or something XD.

It was the time before the great and gracious network appeared for us normal poor mortals, and I just saw this clip on one of my brother’s DVD’s, I think it was Neon genesis XD. I went to the library to find information because I thought the anime looked cool! And I got together some information on it. But it was also then that I started a really weird hobby XD I couldn’t get the anime, and really wanted to know what happened, so I decided to write it myself!! I have around four five note books stacked away somewhere that I wrote this thing in XD.

I knew so little about characters and everything that I could probably just change the names and it would easily sell as an entirely new series all together XD. The only other time I have done this is with Kingdom Hearts, I were looking so forward to the game that I wrote my own story while I waited. I even read it to my little brother as goodnight storiesXD I felt so proud each time he started crying because he thought it was sad. That just means I did something right! Later I put on the Destati song together with the reading and he complained to our mother because it became too scary for him ^-^.

But each summer I go to Oslo to shop and use all my money on anime and manga! (That was before, now I live in Bergen and have a Outland where I can spend money all the time XD) And I acctually found the entire series there, that was made up of four vol. (I bought three first, and found out later it was one in between, but then it was in the sales bin, so: lucky!)

And I could finally watch it myself! Woho! Time travel mind fuck all over the place!

It is about three friends. (I don’t remember if they are brothers, but without spoiling the ending I will say that they probably are at least half brothers XD) that has been exerimented on by a evil company that creates things called Generators, humans that can change into giant monsters. The three of them want to stop this from happening, as they themselves has been made into generators. There is a few twists as the story goes on, and I still wonder about the fact that since they are sure that if that company had never been created, they would never have been born. So if they destroy that company before they are born, wouldn’t it just end up being a impossible circle? They travel back in time and destroy it, and thus they can never themselves be created, but then, who will travel back in time and stop the company XD?

It is a long time since I saw it last, but I remember that I didn’t understand the ending at all! XD My DVD’s are back home, so maybe I will watch it again when I get back there after exams?=)

Kyou Kara Maoh!

From the moment Yuri is flushed by bullies down the toilet and enters a new world, his life will never be the same.

Kyou Kara Maoh! (Demon king from today!) is a mirrored take on the classical weak and normal guy gets sent to a new world, figures out there is a great destiny waiting for him there and so on and so on. It is such a cliche that even the lead hero Yuri starts mocking it in the end. But where Kyou kara Maoh changes all this, is with the fact that Yuri is not going to be a hero for justice that is going to save humankind. He is the destined new demon king, that has been sent from another world to help them lead the war against the humans.

He can’t get home, and he does his best to do what they exspect of him. He tries to learn magic, understand politics, and the weird differences that world has to his own. But the sons of the previous Maou is not all pleased with having him there. Konrad, the middle brother who is also half human, adores Yuri, and seems to already have a special bond with him. The oldest brother Gwendal, that has to handle the politics for him, wants to see a stronger resolve from his new leader(I love Gwendal! He is my favorite just because of his small dirty secrets XD), and the youngest brother Wolfram, who detests humans and thinks that Gwendal is the best for the position of Maou. It all turns hillarious when he gets into a real fight with Yuri over the fact that Yuri’s mother is a human, and it all ends with Yuri proposing to him and then accepting a duel by picking up a knife XD.

The anime is based on a series of Novels, and with a lot of time to build up the characters you will fall in love with most of them. It sort of ends up like the typical harem set up, just with a lot of men instead. But all of it is sweet, and we also see the real struggle Yuri has as he decides that he don’t want to rule a land living in constant fear of humans or demons attacking. So his resolve is to make a world with peace, where humans and demons can live side by side with no worries.

Out on his own, or with his trusted friends on the side, Yuri is able to win over the hearts and trust of anyone he meets, and if there comes troubles their way, it always helps that he harbours a demon king inside with awsome powers but bad taste XD.

I haven’t watched all of the third season yet, but I will when I have time this summer! There is also a pc dating sim game, that is really innocent and allows you to as Yuri get better to know one of the other characters.

PS: This anime has the most awsome demon sword ever!!! And it is a pervert XD Mufu XD