Character study: Ulquiorra Schiffer

 

Ulquiorra Schiffer is one of the longest running personal enemies for Kurosaki Ichigo in the manga Bleach. He is the 4th Espada in Aizen Sousuke’s army, and his aspect of death is Nihilism. He has been one of my favorite Bleach characters for a while now, and I don’t really know why… I think it is the same thing as with Kadaj from Final Fantasy, I just think they need a hug! (Ulquiorra would certainly kill me before I had the chance…)

If you watch the anime or manga, you probably know how Ulquiorra’s sad end came about, and it was certainly sad. Not only did he fade after a victory that Ichigo saw as un-fair, but he also in the end thought he had found what he had looked for his entire existence: the heart.

I decided myself that Ulquiorra was not dead, I decided that since he never got a flashback scene, he just withered away to dust for so to materialize again later (Mayuri became water and escaped!! I so call that Ulquiorra can blow away and materialize!!). But alas, I have now found out that he does have a flashback scene, just that it is a extra chapter in the character guide UNmasked… MY ULQUIORRA IS DEAD!!!! NO!!!! (I now live on for more awsome Ichigo and a hope for a Grimmjow return T.T)

But I am happy that we got a background on him! Since it does explain a little of how he has become like he is.

In the chapter he says that he was born in a deep hole where there was no light, and he were together with hollows like himself. I don’t really know how this works since I guess he were a adjuncas at this point? And that both he and his clan had been born from the same Gillian? I am not sure XD But he is adorable XD

But he is different from his fellow hollows, as they are deep black, and has mouths to feed with, while he has nothing than his eyes  and is completely white beside his eyes, hair and wings. He then kills all of them with no remorse, probably because they decided to turn against him. as hollows are mostly canibalistic.

He keeps wandering alone. He can only see. He can not feel, he can’t hear anything or eat anything. His only sense is that of his sight, and all he learned in his early life was to trust his sight. If he didn’t see something, it didn’t exist at all for him, and this is a fact that he believed in until the end. And another sad fact was that because he had no other sense to help him understand things with, the things he saw made no sense to him.

He had no companions, and because he could not count on any other sense than his eyes, he could not rest at all, since he knew he would be eaten by other hollows.

Then he comes to the place that is the source for the crystal like trees in Hueco Mundo. He is captivated by the energy, but also the emptiness of the trees. They are just there, and they don’t need to interact with others or think about anything. He sees it as the closest thing to a void he had ever seen, and the sad fact is that he explains it as one of the only things he can be able to comprehend himself: With no colour, no sound, no scent, it only exists there.

In the end he lets himself fall into the source, and his mask is broken off as he falls into it. Then he is captured inside it, and as he loses all sight as well, he for the first time in his life feels happiness. He felt that his happiness was in this instant that he had nothing, and he could lose nothing, thus for him, total nothingness was happiness.

Firstly, it seems that Ulquiorra is a exeption to most of the rules of hollows. He is strong, yet he should not have been able to have eaten anything in the start, yet he killed off his entire clan, something that means he must have been really strong to begin with. He is also so far the only Vasto Lord class known that has been able to take off his mask himself, and not with Aizen’s help, another proof of his strenght. But since he is never shown to have eaten another hollow, it might be that he gained a lot of strenght from lying at the source for the crystal trees.

It is still not known how he met Aizen, but we can sort of understand why he had such a high position and did most of the work for Aizen, since a person with no desire at all have to be a wonderful person to trust. He does not desire more powers as the others did, he follows reason, and he had no reason to dissobey Aizen at all.

But with this past revealed, there is another important thing to point out: Ulquiorra’s despair. His first release is the form close to the one he had when he was a Vasto Lord, but the last form, that he tells Ichigo is the true form of Despair, looks a lot like his kin. Does Ulquiorra see despair as becoming like his kin then? And if he does, is it because he saw them as normal hollows and wanted desperately to be like them? Or that he feared to become like them and that was his despair? Their blackness must have seemed like a complete void to him, yet to become like them frightens him? Might this also be a reason he left the void he felt happiness in in the end? Even if he longed for that emptiness, maybe it frightened him as well in the end? And emptiness is his one true despair, no matter how much he longed for it.

In the end it seems that falling into the void and seeing nothing, and also the fascination he has with Ichigo and Orihime all comes back to the fact that he wants to pull himself from the one sense he has always had. He wants to find something his eyes can not see, and know that it is still there. He can not see the thing called feelings, but he links them to the heart that he neither can see, and he keeps longing for it without even knowing enough about life to know that the longing for an answer is a feeling. I think he understands this in the end, as he reaches for Orihime. He did not understand what a heart is, but he understand that there was a feeling in him, that made him reach for her. He understood that he felt longing, and as he pulls his hand back and laments having to die as he finally felt some interest for someone, he for the first time seems like he is sad, as he knows he is about to die, and will never be able to figure out these two people that is so different from him. Orihime who feels so much love for everyone, and Ichigo who lives on to protect, while he himself wishes for nothing to protect or worry about at all.

Hearts, you say? You Humans are always so quick to speak of such things. As though you carry your hearts in the very palms of your hands. But this eye of mine perceives all. There is nothing that it overlooks. If this eye cannot see a thing, then it does not exist. That is the assumption under which I have always fought. What is this “heart”? If I tear open that chest of yours, will I see it there? If I smash open that skull of yours, will I see it there?”

Ulquiorra to Orihime before the fight with Ichigo

Ulquiorra’s real despair in the end, might have been that he never fitted in. His true form was that of his kin that he killed without ever being able to understand, and in his life, he might just have wanted to understand the sensations that his eyes were never able to tell him what was. He says that Nihility is having nothing, and having nothing to lose, he sees this as true happiness, yet he still follows Aizen? Why follow a man and take orders from him if that goes against all his views of true happiness? He protected their home when Aizen was away, and he followed his orders. Might this be a sign that Ulquiorra really did try to find some meaning? And he followed Aizen because he helped him on the way to be able to look for that meaning? In the end, he faded before he knew any real meaning in life…

I see. This. Yes. This thing in my hand is the heart?

Ulquiorra’s last words

Back on Bleach XD

Well, I ended up getting back on Bleach the past few weeks XD I have no idea how that happened right now XD I think it had something to do with my room mate, and that I started to scan some doujinshies again and decided that I wanted to catch up on the manga again as Ichigo was about to be awsome again. (for the record, he didn’t get awsome again, he started whailing like a little girl and his Rukia came and cheered him up again!)

Then I finally finished my small bleach doujinshi on my devianart, and I felt really proud over being able to finish it! Then I also started to write more on the fanfiction it is based off, and my favorites on fanfiction.net grew a lot, together with my watches on my doujinshi blog XD. You really hook people in with porn don’t you?

Then I bought three doujinshies! All of them are crack doujinshies from the circle Uzi-ie code, and are mostly about the Arrancars=) (Ulquiorra main … don’t look at me like that!!! T.T). I am working on translating and editing the scans together with my awsome new scanlation group of Hanne and Lena=) We are…: Hyakkunen keki!!!

I just love this doujinshi XD this is the first page that is about the Arrancars new year XD Aizen is a real dick to all of them XD. The second part is the shinigamis christmas XD We are still working hard on this, but we hope to get out at least one doujinshi XD

And… other than that… I… I bought a Ulquiorra plush …. -.-‘….

I REGRET NOTHING!!!!!!!

Quilting, Epla shop and new drawing equipment!

First off, I have opened a Epla shop XD I have two products for sale, but so far my profit plan does not look like it is going well XD. Well, maybe someone will buy something later? Or I might have to do more with the products? I think I might be able to sell one of them if I make it into a children pillow or something? My shop is located here. I might be able to sell better if I put on a frame too, but I thought it was less hassle with sending it if it wasn’t there XD.

Then I decided that I wanted to try drawing with soft pastel again! I haven’t done that since art school! And I think I were really good at it. It was really fun to draw colorful pictures on black sheets! I bought a basic kit with 12 colors, and a black colored sketch book! I also had to buy a fixation spray later, since the pictures fades easy by touch.

The first one isn’t done yet, since it was not smart to make a portrait when there is no real ability to make a good skin color in the kit. I have bought two colors now that I will use, so I might get it done later=) But the second picture I am really proud of! I used a picture on deviant-art for inspiration, but since it was just a test draw I allow myself the weakness XD. I wonder if I would be able to sell pictures like this? Maybe people would buy then XD?

Like I have told before, I got a big case load of quilting fabric from my aunt. I really didn’t think I could start with it yet, since I couldn’t even get more than 10 fabrics or something with me on the buss back to Bergen. But my mom sent me some of it in the post! So I have half of this now, and I have also bought some stuff from the Stoff & stil shop in Bergen! So now I have the scariest cutting blade ever (got my finger the first time XD) and a big ruler and big cutting board=) I went to fretex as well, and found two really good books on quilting! So I started on a starpillow, and I have worked hard on it in between school work=)

First there is four triangles, that are laid together into one Quadrilateral with the open sides up. (the Quadrilaterals that makes up the triangles is 7×4 cm, and around 0.6 cm on the top is pressed down before it is made into a trinagle.)

Then make eight ones, and put them out like on the picture above. (try a little more accurate than me XD)

Then eight more, for two more rounds.

After that make 16, and put out this way.

And 16 more once more XD. Yeah I know, I should really have been done before starting to make a sorry excuse for a tutorial XD.

Other than that I also found a Quilt store in Bergen! And even thou it is expensive, I will return there in the future, cause they have a lot of nice fabric! And also cheap sewing machine, something I really think I might need in the future now…

I also want to make a dress for a special little girl, but I just need to get this pillow done first, and wait till I get money to buy colorful happy fabric!=)