D.gray-man makes me depressed now…

Since I started to watch the anime and manga up again, I have noticed a few things that is really depressiv when you think about it, the entire deal with Suman Dark, and also the end of the anime, that sort of said: Yeah, the Millenium Earl can fuck you all over when he wants to. Hope you can sleep at night now.

But after I now read the novel and got Allen’s backstory from the age of 8 and up I think, since he don’t know how old he is, and he has no name or memory from before he was sold to a circus. It is said that he was sold by his parents because of his deformed arm, but I bet there is something else to it XD.

Love this song, should be matched with sad scenes and hope killed in instant…

It starts with a young boy Red that does odd jobs at the Circus. He is hated by everyone, and he has never in his life had friends. Worst is the Ringmaster and the clown Cosmos that keeps beating him. A new clown named Mana comes along with a trained dog named Allen, and Red and Allen become friends. But then Cosmos gets jealous of the new clown’s fame and kills Allen.

Mana and Red talks for the first time by Allen’s grave, and Red quickly understands that something is really, REALLY wrong with Mana. He says that he is looking for his little brother that is gone, and that he is really seventeen but that he just suddenly woke up in a new middle aged body. It is explained later that Mana went crazy when his brother was killed by the Earl, and he probably just forgot most of his life.

The circus is attacked by the Earl that is after Mana (I think there is some jealousy out going there… can explain why the Earl makes his human look like Mana? Or do they look like each other from before? Or is it true that Mana just woke up in a new body, and the Earl is just a happy sadist?), and Red is saved by Cross, that seems to blame everything that happens to Mana on Red, (I guess it is either because Mana spent so much time there with him, or that he already realized that Red held the memory of the 14th. Or that Red beat the shit out of Mana for not hating the man that killed his dog…) Cross is about to shot Red (Taste of things to come kid… taste of things to come…) when Timcanpy saves him, something that probably means that he recognized him.

When Red finds Mana again, Mana has forgotten all about his brother, and seems worse of than ever. And here is where the first blow in the gut comes! When you read the manga it seems like Allen is afraid that Mana just took care of him because he knew he held the memories of his brother. But why is that the worst he fears?! When he already knew that Mana was crazy, and took him in because he thinks he is his dead dog?! He takes the name Allen, and takes care of Mana because he feels guilty over Cross saying it was all his fault that Mana was like he was.

But it seems Allen did love his time with Mana, and it was probably the best time in his life.

And then, if the fact that his happiest time in life was being mistaken as a dead dog wasn’t bad enough, Mana dies. And Allen is fooled by the Millenium Earl to call Mana back and make him into a demon. Allen is then cursed by the man he loves as a father, and his arm suddenly turns into a anti-demon weapon and starts attacking Mana without Allen being able to control it. It is heartbreaking to see a scene where a little boy is crying for his father to get away, while his giant monstrous arm is pulling him over the ground and kills his father, who leaves him with the duying words: I love you, Allen! (We will never know if it is to the boy, the dog, or if the 14ths name was Allen as some think.)

Then he is taken in by Cross, and when the boy you take in would rather go back to live with a crazy clown than be with you, you fail at parenting!

He train with Cross for three years, (Helps him get money for drinking and womanizing) before his master hits him with a hammer and leave him passed out in India to find the black order headquarters by himself…

Allen is able to find his way, and he for the first time in his life gets steady friends, and a place he can call home, where people welcome him home when he gets back from missions, and he can finally talk with people without being too respectful.

Then it all goes downhill, it starts with the heartbreaking deal with Suman Dark, a exorcist who betrayed his comrades to the Noah since he wanted to be able to return home to his daughter. His innocence (Anti-demon weapon) has turned into a giant monster, and is draining his life as it starts attacking villages around. Allen promises Lenalee to save him, and even if his arm won’t work anymore, Allen uses the last of his powers to pull Suman free from his innocence and as he wakes up at the ground, he sees that Suman were safe together with him. But Suman is comatose, and just sits there and drools as he had no mind left. But Allen keeps thinking positive, and as long as Suman is alive, there is still hope for the future!

Then Tyki comes and lets his tease butterflies eat Suman up…

It is one thing to read about this, but when you watch the anime and see all the work and hope in this episode, and Allen that makes Suman believe he will save him and that everything will be ok, your heart will break!

And then Allen’s does… Evil mean Tyki-poh makes the tease eat a hole in his heart, after he tears his arm off and breaks it into dust. And Allen lies there alone to die a terrible death. Well, he would if his innocence hadn’t patched his heart together again and he is saved by the Asian branch of the order.

There Allen trains to get his weapon back, and we hear him say that he sees himself as not a human, but a weapon, and that he needs to back and fight for the demons. Then he gets the true form of his innocence, and it is fitting a clown 😛 But I love the crowned Clown!!

It gets a little scarier later when he takes off his entire arm and uses it as a sword O.o. I am still amuses that the sword is the same as the Earl’s just inverted XD.

Then he starts loosing his home too, as he for some reason is able to control the ark that only the Noah should be able to control. Back at the order it seems that everyone exept for his friends starts spreading rumors that he is with the Millenium Earl and he is put under surveilance by Howard Link, (I didn’t like him in the starts, but I grew to love the stalker with the worst bedside manners ever XD) And then the HQ is attacked and even one of Allen’s friends is killed. But there is no rest for Allen, as Cross reveals that Allen is not as everyone thought, a piece left behind by the 14th, but the 14th himself, and he tells Allen that when he loses his mind and become the 14th, he will kill people he loves. After that Cross is assasinated, and Allen has lost both his adoptive fathers.

Allen makes a promise to his friends that the time when they have to fight him will not come, as he will fight against the 14th’s memory inside him with all he can. But he also knows that the 14th was Mana’s brother, and he starts to wonder if he ever decided anything himself in his life, or if the 14th decided all he did and that Mana knew who he was and took him in because of that. (Don’t worry Allen! He thinks you were his dog, not his little brother! <3!)

He remains with the order under strickt guard, but when he fights a demon and has to stab his sword trough the demon and himself, the hate for the innocence from the Noah inside him wakes the 14th up to send a message for the Earl. He is able to get back control this time, but when he is later stabbed by the raging Kanda, is seems like the Earl’s plan on waking the 14th up has succeded. Inside his own mind Allen meets Neah, the 14th, that tells him that the Earl is crazy and has forgotten everything, and that he as Allen is a broken doll. (Hey… could the Earl and Mana be the same? I know they appeared at the same time in the novel… but since the Earl’s apperance is just a shield it might work couldn’t it? Man… that would be really sad for Allen wouldn’t it?)

Tim comes to the rescue and a vision of Mana wakes Allen up in time to reveal the heartbreaking truth about Kanda and Alma. (Hoshino Katsura-sama… you make the sadest outcomes ever… can’t we have one happy moment?!)

But Allen has lost his home now, as the order sees him as a Noah, and keeps him imprisoned for helping Kanda and Alma. The entire HQ is full of hate against him, and his friends is even picked on because they keep protecting him.

He is then attacked by the guardian of the Heart, and finds out that it was the innocence that killed his master, and he is saved by Tyki and Road that had been sent by the Earl to save him.

He don’t want to escape with them, but Road gets hurt while protecting him, and after he blows up on Tyki, Tyki tells him that yes, the Noah is bad, but so is the innocence, and Allen has both of those two evils inside him, and because he keeps running away from his problems, chaos and sadness follows him.

Allen leaves the order and the Noah behind, after a tearfull farewell with Lenalee, that knows that if he leaves they will have to fight when they meet again, since Allen has been marked as a Noah after his escape.












And that was the story so far -.- ‘….

Allen keeps smiling and being so nice all the time, so I think he, like Mana, has cracked. If he hasn’t yet, he should!

Right now I am full supporter of Allen joining the Noah and blowing the world up -.-.

Gah… feel depressed, I want the next chapter so I can see what happens… only the Noah can cheer me up now… and they dared put my Link into danger again! If he don’t survive this and remember that Allen or the Noah didn’t attack him, I will rage!!!

I used scans from others in this post, and I claim no ownage of any of it, the only thing I made was the gif and the text in it XD But Allen was so adorable in that chapter… I understand why Link is so pissed, since Allen just blames himself and not the others that did stop him from saving the third exorcists.

Candidate for most evil character – Marian Cross (D.Gray-man)

Thought this would be a fun new thing XD Candidate for most evil character in anime, manga or other media! First off (until I can think of anyone elseXD):

Marshall Marian Cross!

Escaped from the Order to hunt Akuma’s on his own, and he even took in a poor child (Allen) that had no one else. Seems like a good guy right? But then we get to the bad parts… he is a womanizer, and he uses all his money on drinking and women, he exploits his lovers for money to continue on, and he uses the poor 12-15 year old Allen to get more money. He is even known for leaving the debts to be collected by his enemies.

Here is some clips to proove his evilness XD:

Generator Gawl

I was still in high school when I got hooked on this one, but the weirdest thing is that I don’t think I even watched the anime for at least two years later or something XD.

It was the time before the great and gracious network appeared for us normal poor mortals, and I just saw this clip on one of my brother’s DVD’s, I think it was Neon genesis XD. I went to the library to find information because I thought the anime looked cool! And I got together some information on it. But it was also then that I started a really weird hobby XD I couldn’t get the anime, and really wanted to know what happened, so I decided to write it myself!! I have around four five note books stacked away somewhere that I wrote this thing in XD.

I knew so little about characters and everything that I could probably just change the names and it would easily sell as an entirely new series all together XD. The only other time I have done this is with Kingdom Hearts, I were looking so forward to the game that I wrote my own story while I waited. I even read it to my little brother as goodnight storiesXD I felt so proud each time he started crying because he thought it was sad. That just means I did something right! Later I put on the Destati song together with the reading and he complained to our mother because it became too scary for him ^-^.

But each summer I go to Oslo to shop and use all my money on anime and manga! (That was before, now I live in Bergen and have a Outland where I can spend money all the time XD) And I acctually found the entire series there, that was made up of four vol. (I bought three first, and found out later it was one in between, but then it was in the sales bin, so: lucky!)

And I could finally watch it myself! Woho! Time travel mind fuck all over the place!

It is about three friends. (I don’t remember if they are brothers, but without spoiling the ending I will say that they probably are at least half brothers XD) that has been exerimented on by a evil company that creates things called Generators, humans that can change into giant monsters. The three of them want to stop this from happening, as they themselves has been made into generators. There is a few twists as the story goes on, and I still wonder about the fact that since they are sure that if that company had never been created, they would never have been born. So if they destroy that company before they are born, wouldn’t it just end up being a impossible circle? They travel back in time and destroy it, and thus they can never themselves be created, but then, who will travel back in time and stop the company XD?

It is a long time since I saw it last, but I remember that I didn’t understand the ending at all! XD My DVD’s are back home, so maybe I will watch it again when I get back there after exams?=)

Kyou Kara Maoh!

From the moment Yuri is flushed by bullies down the toilet and enters a new world, his life will never be the same.

Kyou Kara Maoh! (Demon king from today!) is a mirrored take on the classical weak and normal guy gets sent to a new world, figures out there is a great destiny waiting for him there and so on and so on. It is such a cliche that even the lead hero Yuri starts mocking it in the end. But where Kyou kara Maoh changes all this, is with the fact that Yuri is not going to be a hero for justice that is going to save humankind. He is the destined new demon king, that has been sent from another world to help them lead the war against the humans.

He can’t get home, and he does his best to do what they exspect of him. He tries to learn magic, understand politics, and the weird differences that world has to his own. But the sons of the previous Maou is not all pleased with having him there. Konrad, the middle brother who is also half human, adores Yuri, and seems to already have a special bond with him. The oldest brother Gwendal, that has to handle the politics for him, wants to see a stronger resolve from his new leader(I love Gwendal! He is my favorite just because of his small dirty secrets XD), and the youngest brother Wolfram, who detests humans and thinks that Gwendal is the best for the position of Maou. It all turns hillarious when he gets into a real fight with Yuri over the fact that Yuri’s mother is a human, and it all ends with Yuri proposing to him and then accepting a duel by picking up a knife XD.

The anime is based on a series of Novels, and with a lot of time to build up the characters you will fall in love with most of them. It sort of ends up like the typical harem set up, just with a lot of men instead. But all of it is sweet, and we also see the real struggle Yuri has as he decides that he don’t want to rule a land living in constant fear of humans or demons attacking. So his resolve is to make a world with peace, where humans and demons can live side by side with no worries.

Out on his own, or with his trusted friends on the side, Yuri is able to win over the hearts and trust of anyone he meets, and if there comes troubles their way, it always helps that he harbours a demon king inside with awsome powers but bad taste XD.

I haven’t watched all of the third season yet, but I will when I have time this summer! There is also a pc dating sim game, that is really innocent and allows you to as Yuri get better to know one of the other characters.

PS: This anime has the most awsome demon sword ever!!! And it is a pervert XD Mufu XD


Since it is summer vacation soon I am in a nostalgic mood, and I get a urge to watch a lot of anime! Since summer is my anime and manga time XD.I thought that when I have the time I should share my summer memories on the blog ^-^, something like a song or anime/manga a day. Exept from the days that I don’t have time, like if I get too tired after exams or something like that.

Now I have come to D.Gray-man, that I acctually did watch a lot before, until the anime ended and the manga went on a hiatus while one of my favorites were in mortal danger!!!!*rage*

Allen Walker is a 15 year old exorcist that haunts Akuma, creatures that is created by the mysterious Millenium Earl by the souls of the dearly departed.

A Akuma is made when someone eager to return a loved one to the living is fooled by the Millenium Earl to call their loved one back, the soul will then inhabit a shell made by the Earl, and it will kill and wear the form of it’s loved one.

Set in a alternate Victorian world, the fight between the black order and the Noah wages, and Allen is between as he works for the order, but at the same time he is also one of the ones cursed by signing a deal with the Millenium Earl. Allen lives to free the Akuma from their cursed state, and on the way he finds new reasons to live in the form of his new friends in the order.

His right hand is for his friends, and his left hand is for the salvation of Akuma.

————-Warning, here there be spoilers————————

I liked the story from the start, since it was sort of gothic. I love a lot of the characters, at least Krory that is the worlds most adorable vampire XD

I have come to the point where I love most of the bad guys too T.T, the Millenium Earl is awsome in his own weird way, and lately now he had started to show up in a human form. (While Road is a doll…) I think it is adorable now that he seems to genuinly care for his 14th brother that even once betrayed him, the Earl even went as far as to say that he just wanted him by his side, and he even cries in his sleep XD.

But my favorite in the series is of course Allen, he is adorable XD, and after being taught the ways of cheating from his master he also has a dark gambler side to him XD, and so far I think Kanda is the only one who has gotten a really dark side out of Allen XD It is pure hate ^-^.

But it seems that the drawing style of the manga has changed lately, from the nice and delicate style it was before, to a little harder style. It is ok, but I sort of liked the feel the old one had too.

But after I started again now, I sort of love the way this story is going XD And I also love that the fact that you can see that Allen is the 14th is because the Noah genes apperantly brings natural currlier hair XD.(Does that mean Gin can be a NoahXD? It can explain his sweet tooth XD)

And Noah Allen is smexy XP. And maybe also a little mental XD I do think he is a good guy, and just wants to stop his brother from doing wrong things, but the way this is going he could be either a good guy or a bad guy.

I also love the way the Noah now and again sort of seems de-monified now, like when Tiki and Allen comes jumping in together and uses the Earl as a landing spot, or when Allen uses the Earl as leverage when tossing Kanda off with Alma XD, and the most genius thing is that the Earl seems quite pleased about it each time he is used like that XD He even talks with hearts when Allen tries to smash his head in! It is said that the Millenium Earl is based on a person that was alive, and that just adds to the awsome XD

I also love that he sent Tiki and Road to save Allen when he sensed he were in danger, if that isn’t brotherly love I don’t know what is.

I doubt Allen will join the Noah, but he won’t return to the Order either now, so I just want the next chapter so I can see where he is going!!! *rage!!*

And I miss Cross… he was like a manly version of Grell! The world would be doomed if the two of them ever met! But his last words to Allen, about the fact that if he became the 14th he would have to kill the ones he loved, I thought first it meant his friends in the order, but if the 14th is like the rest of the Noah, I guess they love each other a lot, so the loved ones he will have to kill is probably them… T.T

Love this song!!!LA

Now I leave you with pages of brotherly love!:

My fingers hurts a little XD

I have been sewing like crazy XD I have the start of the jacket done now, but I can’t continue until I figure out how to expand it a little, since I were stupid enough to make it too small XD I will just cut up the back and add some more there, and then try and splice in more at the front XD

Don’t look that great yet, but I am really proud of the seams this far=) I have even made it look good on the inside now=)

But since I have to get more on the front, I have to take of the red ribbon I used, but I wonder if I should take a trip into town tomorrow (since it is comic day on outland) and buy some smaller ribbons at the fabric store.

I also started on the newest cross stitch yesterday, and it is so adorable! XD

I just love the colors on this! I haven’t made anything with this many colors before! It is also small, so it won’t that that much time, I just want to sit and work on it between exam work.

I have finished my bachelor about Kuchisake-Onna now, and I just have to get in this semester’s grammar before my exam XD

Wish me luck!